So long never post already, guess this blog might be forgotten for long long time ago.
Don't know what i am holding on to, and blogging here, maybe just thought of some memories me and him had together.
Everyday been missing him , everytime having the thought of happy times together, tears welling up in my eyes. From a bubbly girl , i've turn into a quiet and stern girl. Hasnt been smiling for long.
Find smiling so hard now. There was a time when my friend saw the neoprints on my ezlink card and ask me
a question that i don't know how to answer; " where is the smile on this photo ? ". Just simply give him a smile and change topic. Other than work, always stay at home facing the com don't know what else to do.
Used to love night time and after work , because i knew after work there is someone that i yearn to see and hug for the entire day , but now i hate it. i rather stay in the office and work to past time. Every lonely night , i will be looking the photo of me and him, wondering if i had been good, if i am willing to continue slogging at the clinic, we would still be together as a perfect lovely and sweet couple like that time.
But all this have been too late to regret too. Yesterday also don't know what happen to me, been out of my mind, raging at my best brother . Totally not my character at all. Why should i still holding on ? Been asking myself that, and didnt got an answer. Don't feel like thinking already. Been too tired. Really tired of tearing.
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